Yes that is what I am (for the most part). I'm working on it! One of the main things I've learned in the last 8 months is that I'm not in control. I may have the illusion of being in control, but I know the One who really is in control. When we figured out that getting pregnant wasn't going to happen without a little help, I was devastated. I felt like I was broken. My body didn't work like it was supposed to. I was so scared that we would never have a child, but I had to learn to trust the One who is in control, who knows my every need, who sees my future and has plans for me. I expected the whole process to take at least a year... two months later, I got two pink lines. Excitement about being pregnant quickly dimished to a terrified state. I couldn't wrap my mind around what I was going to have to do to have this baby. All I could think was that I'm not strong enough. Guess what... I'm not. In the last 6 months, I have had to let go of my control issues and accept the fact that I'm not in control. I can't determine what is going to happen to me or David or our baby. We are in His hands and that is a good place to be.
"When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." Psalm 139:15-16
M and M's
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
24 weeks
Wow...I can't believe it has been almost six months! I took another belly picture last week, but it's still on my camera, so I'll have to post it next time. I definitely look pregnant now....better than just looking fat. =)
This past weekend the MIL and I started shopping for the nursery. We got the paint and a shelf (the shelf's going back...wrong wood stain...I'm picky, what can I say?) We got letters for Ashlyn's name to be hung above her crib! Those are going back too because I want something cursive. Trial and error...that's how I roll.
I got two absolutely adorable picture frames. One say's "Love at first sight" and it has her ultrasound picture. I grow to love this little child more and more every day. I am so blessed that God is allowing me to raise a child. I know this child is not ours...she is God's child and we are being given the honor and privilege of raising her.
I finally got a chance to fill out a registry on Babies R' Us. It's mostly the big stuff we need. I dragged David to Target on Sunday to help me fill out the baby registry there. Babies sure do need a lot of stuff. I let David use the gun...good thing I could alter it online...he was randomly shooting things at one point. I may be wrong, but I don't think we'll need a pair of 18 mo. shorts (at least they were pink) and 3 bottle brushes.
I don't think nesting has set in yet, but I think since I'm feeling better, the OCD is setting in a little more and the disarray and disorganization of the house is driving me insane! I scrubbed the kitchen and bathroom this weekend. Yesterday I worked through lunch and left early to work on business stuff at home. Thank God for the focus I had yesterday because I really needed to catch up! Yeah! David and Jamey had to go to Georgia today to have the kitchen trailer "re-skinned", so God-willing (and my lower back), today I will finish the laundry and have clean floors once again!
On another note...we have a new baby! Not really since I won't let him in the house, but he decided to call our house home and we are feeding him, so I guess that means he's ours for now. His name is TomCat (we call him Tom). He is definitely a tomcat and the most scraggly looking black cat I've ever seen. He has the girliest meow and he will rub on your leg when you walk through the garage, but don't let him fool you into thinking he's sweet. If you try to pet him, he'll let you know he can touch you, but doesn't want you to touch him.
This past weekend the MIL and I started shopping for the nursery. We got the paint and a shelf (the shelf's going back...wrong wood stain...I'm picky, what can I say?) We got letters for Ashlyn's name to be hung above her crib! Those are going back too because I want something cursive. Trial and error...that's how I roll.
I got two absolutely adorable picture frames. One say's "Love at first sight" and it has her ultrasound picture. I grow to love this little child more and more every day. I am so blessed that God is allowing me to raise a child. I know this child is not ours...she is God's child and we are being given the honor and privilege of raising her.
I finally got a chance to fill out a registry on Babies R' Us. It's mostly the big stuff we need. I dragged David to Target on Sunday to help me fill out the baby registry there. Babies sure do need a lot of stuff. I let David use the gun...good thing I could alter it online...he was randomly shooting things at one point. I may be wrong, but I don't think we'll need a pair of 18 mo. shorts (at least they were pink) and 3 bottle brushes.
I don't think nesting has set in yet, but I think since I'm feeling better, the OCD is setting in a little more and the disarray and disorganization of the house is driving me insane! I scrubbed the kitchen and bathroom this weekend. Yesterday I worked through lunch and left early to work on business stuff at home. Thank God for the focus I had yesterday because I really needed to catch up! Yeah! David and Jamey had to go to Georgia today to have the kitchen trailer "re-skinned", so God-willing (and my lower back), today I will finish the laundry and have clean floors once again!
On another note...we have a new baby! Not really since I won't let him in the house, but he decided to call our house home and we are feeding him, so I guess that means he's ours for now. His name is TomCat (we call him Tom). He is definitely a tomcat and the most scraggly looking black cat I've ever seen. He has the girliest meow and he will rub on your leg when you walk through the garage, but don't let him fool you into thinking he's sweet. If you try to pet him, he'll let you know he can touch you, but doesn't want you to touch him.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Friday, April 16, 2010
Baby Ryan is growing fast...
Just an update on Baby Ryan and her Mommy and Daddy -
Daddy is working too hard (as usual), but he joined a softball team, so he is having some fun too now!
Mommy is feeling better now that I figured out that if I sleep propped up in bed (pretty much upright in a sitting position) that I don't get sick in the morning....Yeah! Oh the joys of pregnancy! Ha Ha!
Baby Ryan is growing like a weed! We are working on finding a name for her. I found a set of crib bedding that I fell in LOVE with! They are holding it for me at a store in Vestavia Hills, so I am going to get it tomorrow. Here is a picture of the bedding I chose. It is called Heaven Sent Girl:
And the most fun news of all...I FELT THE BABY LAST NIGHT! Just a couple days shy of 20 weeks, I finally felt my little angel. I woke poor David up in the middle of night to tell him, but he was excited.
Gracie was laying on my tummy and apparently that made Baby Ryan squirmy. :) I wonder what Gracie will do when she can feel Baby Ryan???
Daddy is working too hard (as usual), but he joined a softball team, so he is having some fun too now!
Mommy is feeling better now that I figured out that if I sleep propped up in bed (pretty much upright in a sitting position) that I don't get sick in the morning....Yeah! Oh the joys of pregnancy! Ha Ha!
Baby Ryan is growing like a weed! We are working on finding a name for her. I found a set of crib bedding that I fell in LOVE with! They are holding it for me at a store in Vestavia Hills, so I am going to get it tomorrow. Here is a picture of the bedding I chose. It is called Heaven Sent Girl:
And the most fun news of all...I FELT THE BABY LAST NIGHT! Just a couple days shy of 20 weeks, I finally felt my little angel. I woke poor David up in the middle of night to tell him, but he was excited.Gracie was laying on my tummy and apparently that made Baby Ryan squirmy. :) I wonder what Gracie will do when she can feel Baby Ryan???
Monday, April 12, 2010
It's a.....
Girl!
We are very excited!
Maybe now I can start making some decorating decisions about the nursery. :)
Monday, April 5, 2010
Baby Bump
The baby bump is appearing. :) We find out (hopefully) if it is a boy or a girl this Thursday! I am VERY excited!
Key West
So I know Spring Break was a few weeks ago, but just like everything in life right now...I get to it eventually. I'm trying to catch up from 3 months of feeling like crap, and I'm still tired and there are days that I'm still a little sick. Looking at Key West pictures makes me smile. Here are a few:
The islands are so beautiful! The weather was perfect!
Standing at the Southernmost Point on the Continental US with Laura and Jamey.
We ate lunch at one of Laura and Jamey's favorite spots. We had outdoor seating in a cozy little courtyard.
And then I got pooped on...if you look closely, you can see the culprit.
We got to spend the day on the ocean in a friend of the Graham family's boat...this is just one of the many beautiful sunsets we got to see.
Last night of vacation...we stayed in Islamorada. My friend Jenny drove down from Miami and had dinner with us. I had Stone Crab for the first time....LOVE IT. It was totally worth "saving up my seafood allowance" for the last week. It was so windy that it was actually cold. I thought we were all going to freeze to death in our summer clothes. That is the kind of difference in weather that two hours north makes.
We took a different route home because David wanted to show me the Everglades. We took a break from driving to take an airboat tour. I'm so glad we did! You really can't get a good idea of what the everglades are like by looking out a car window. It looks so different when you look out on the land as opposed to being right on it. We saw a ton of gators and lots of beautiful birds. This was a very fun trip!
The islands are so beautiful! The weather was perfect!
Standing at the Southernmost Point on the Continental US with Laura and Jamey.
We ate lunch at one of Laura and Jamey's favorite spots. We had outdoor seating in a cozy little courtyard.
And then I got pooped on...if you look closely, you can see the culprit.
We got to spend the day on the ocean in a friend of the Graham family's boat...this is just one of the many beautiful sunsets we got to see.
Last night of vacation...we stayed in Islamorada. My friend Jenny drove down from Miami and had dinner with us. I had Stone Crab for the first time....LOVE IT. It was totally worth "saving up my seafood allowance" for the last week. It was so windy that it was actually cold. I thought we were all going to freeze to death in our summer clothes. That is the kind of difference in weather that two hours north makes.
We took a different route home because David wanted to show me the Everglades. We took a break from driving to take an airboat tour. I'm so glad we did! You really can't get a good idea of what the everglades are like by looking out a car window. It looks so different when you look out on the land as opposed to being right on it. We saw a ton of gators and lots of beautiful birds. This was a very fun trip!
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